Tuesday, February 24, 2009

SESSION FOUR: At Home with Rose

Playlist for At Home with Rose for Wednesday 25 February, 2009 on Radio23.

My favourite track for today is Whenua by Isle Park. Strange and beautiful.

Thanks heaps to Chelsea from Teacups for sending me tracks for the show. Also to Reuben from Emerald Citeies for Mull Pasha, the new single from their forthcoming release Circa Scaria due out on 6 April.

Subatomic Pop, Bachelorette, Isolation Loops, 2006
Harajuku, Grayson Gilmour, Phantom Limbs, 2005
Electro Rock Power, Disasteradio, Disasteradio, 2002
Glib, Phelps & Munro, A Low Hum (Disc 2), 2004
Poppacino, Bachelorette, Isolation Loops, 2006
Outsleep The Day, Collapsing Cities, Collapsing Cities EP, 2007
mull pasha, An Emerald City
Do You Feel Loathesome?, Grayson Gilmour, Phantom Limbs, 2005
Hotel Azteca, Salon Kingsadore, Hotel Azteca, 2006
Whenua, Isle Park
Blue Penguin, Ruby Suns, Sea Lion, 2008
Moon in a Jar, The Wicks, Why Do People Walk, 2008
Yellow, Fang, A Low Hum (Disc 2), 2004
Pretty (Brimea Mix), Cloudboy, Flying Way Too High, Arclife Records
Zapped, Bailter Space, Wammo
i Dot Heart, Actor slash model
Walk Along, Cloudboy, Cloudboy
Picture You, Tawhiri, Flying Way Too High, Arclife Records
Boatsong, Rosy Tin Teacaddy, Blind Leading the Blind, 2007
Four Eyed Bird Watcher, Teacups
Sea Shanty, Ragamuffin Children, Werecat Lullabies, 2007
Throwing Stones, Sneaky Feelings, Tuatara: A Flying Nun Compilation, 1991
Made Up In Blue, The Bats, Daddy's Highway, 1987
Magic, Teacups
Sophie, The Wellington International Ukulele Orchestra, A Little Bit Wonderful, 2008
There Are Birds, Ruby Suns, Sea Lion, 2008
I Hope The Pope Makes You A Saint, Lawrence Arabia, Lawrence Arabia, 2006
Ballad, Teacups
Princess Chelsea, Your Woman (White Town Cover)
Princess Chelsea, Monkey Eats Bananas

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Go away, girls

Dave and I just watched the first episode of Go Girls. What the fuck?! What a dreadful piece of TV that was. Outrageous Fortune of the North Shore? Sorry, Listener, I don't think so. Don't piggyback on that, you plonkers.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

SESSION THREE: At Home with Rose

It's that time of the week again. Thanks to i.ryoko (Thomas) for dropping off some tracks for the show.

My favourite track from the show is Alistair Galbraith's sublime “Lull and Make it Snow”.

Listen to the show 7 till 9am on www.radio23.org

Playlist for Thursday 18 February:

Dreamy Flying (Live), Kahu, Flying Way Too High, 496 secs, 2000, Arclife Records
Cut Too Short for Contentment, i.ryoko, 235 secs, 2008
Part 1, Rosy Parlane, Iris, 1149 secs, 2004, Touch
We saw it all through the 20th Century, In the Interest of the Convoy, 416 secs, 2008
Beginning of Compression Amplified by Dislocation, Omit, Transmogrification, 100 secs, 1993, self-released cassette
Return To The Stars, RST, Axes, 294 secs, 2007, Last Visible Dog
Hik, Swung, Voice and Key 1996-2006, 182 secs, 2006, Pseudo Arcana
Laburnum, Jakob, Cale:drew, 470 secs, 2003, Midium Records
The Crossover, Omit, Transmogrification, 461 secs, 1993, self-released cassette
Lull and make it snow, Alistair Galbraith, Cry, 67 secs, Emperor Jones
Untitled 1, White Winged Moth, I Can See Inside Your House, 373 secs, 1995, Poon Village
Shuf, Swung, Voice and Key 1996-2006, 310 secs, 2006, Pseudo Arcana
Track 04, With Throats As Fine As Needles, With Throats As Fine As Needles, 337 secs, 2006, Digitalis Industries / Students of Decay
all quiet on howth now, seht, dronemusic, 268 secs, 2001, Celebrate Psi Phenomenom
Adrift, RST, Axes, 386 secs, 2007, Last Visible Dog
Untitled 1, White Winged Moth, Silo Blanket, 503 secs, 1997, Formacentric
Make The Baby Jesus Cry Some More, Seht, The Voice Of The Taniwha, 404 secs, 2003, Last Visible Dog
Pulsing, Antony Milton, Sirens/And Where The Coloured Planes Are Rafts, 225 secs, 2005, Last Visible Dog
Lonely Woman, Greg Malcolm, Homesick For Nowhere, 415 secs, 2002, Corpus Hermeticum
Lay Thy Hatred Down, Birchville Cat Motel, Our love will destroy the world, 198 secs, 2006, Pseudo Arcana

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

SESSION TWO: At Home with Rose

It's my non-noise week for my radio show, so a mix of old and new of mixed genre. Okay, Ladyhawke is totally pop, but I love "Paris is Burning". I can't justify it – I just like it.

I'm hoping I can eventually play my show completely live without having to plan ahead, but for now I'm having to do it this way. Been a bit lazy with the links - might add some more in if I have time. I seem to be having a very busy week.

Included are three of my all-time favourite NZ songs - Tall Dwarf's "Nothing's Gonna Happen" (felt like my teenage theme song at the age of 15), The Chills' "Pink Frost" and "Down in Splendour" by Straightjacket Fits. I always did prefer Andrew Brough's voice to Shayne Carter's.

www.radio23.org from 7 to 9 in the morning.

Crazy? Yes! Dumb? No!, The Mint Chicks, Crazy? Yes! Dumb? No!, 2006
No Plans, Collapsing Cities, Collapsing Cities EP, 2007
Paris Is Burning, Ladyhawke, Ladyhawke, 2008
Holding Back One, Bachelorette, Isolation Loops, 2006
And The Earth Knew Absence, Bachelorette, Isolation Loops, 2006
Bockaw, Leila Adu, Cherry Pie
Memory Bells, John White, Mogwash, 2004
Sailor's Song, John White, Mogwash, 2004
It's Mwangi In Front Of Me, Ruby Suns, Sea Lion, 2008
Afternoon in Bed, The Bats, Thousands of Tiny Luminous Spheres
Eyes Rarely Meet, Age Pryor, A Low Hum (Disc 2), 2004
Somewhere Over The Moon, Mëstar, Shut The Squizwot Factories Down, 2007
Float On A Feather, John White, Balloon Adventure
The Mystery Lair, Lawrence Arabia, Lawrence Arabia, 2006
The Thinnest Air, Lawrence Arabia, Lawrence Arabia, 2006
I Don't Mind (Lawrence Arabia Remix), Dudley Benson, The Orders, Medals & Decorations EP, 2006
Pink Frost, The Chills, Tuatara - A Flying Nun Compilation, 1991
Dirge, The Verlaines, You're Just Too Obscure For Me
Slow Sad Love Song, The Verlaines, You're Just Too Obscure For Me
One More Reason, Bailter Space, Tanker
Down In Splendor, Straitjacket Fits, Topless Women Talk About Their Lives compilation
In My Craft Or Sullen Art, Mink, For My Mink, 1996
Freeways, The Reduction Agents, The Dance Reduction Agents, 2006
The Pool, The Reduction Agents, The Dance Reduction Agents, 2006
Elmira Vs The Latchkey Kid, Grayson Gilmour, Phantom Limbs, 2005
Stonesthrow, Grayson Gilmour, Phantom Limbs, 2005
Telephone Senor Kleeno, Disasteradio, Disasteradio, 2002
Casiotone Video Lesson, Disasteradio, Disasteradio, 2002
Sleeping During The Day, The Mint Chicks, Crazy? Yes! Dumb? No!, 2006
If My Arm Was A Mic Stand, Would You Hold My Hand?, The Mint Chicks, Crazy? Yes! Dumb? No!, 2006
Ole Rinka, Ruby Suns, Sea Lion, 2008
Fear Of Opening My Mouth, Collapsing Cities, Fear Of Opening My Mouth, 2008
Skeleton Dance, So So Modern, Real Groove Presents...Awesome Feeling, 2007
How Am I Not Myself?, Shocking Pinks, Shocking Pinks, 2007
Hands, Barge, Barge By Name Barge By Nature, 2007
Any Any, Skeptics, If I Will I Can, 1990
Nothings Gonna Happen, The Tall Dwarfs, It's Bigger Than Both Of Us compilation

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Humour at home

David called me a witch (I was trying very hard to annoy him at the time, and succeeding). Then he said “I think I offended a woman at work when I called her a witch [pause for effect]… I think she's a fundamentalist christian.”

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

SESSION ONE: At Home With Rose

As a preamble to my show tomorrow morning, I want to quote part of a review of PseudoArcana's compilation, The Tone of the Universe (= The Tone of the Earth) on Pitchfork:

“Drone is liturgy. Since its mid-century installation in the repertoire of experimental music, drone has been coded with naked aspirations: people looking to the holy East; people looking to the archaic; people looking into deep space, into the pure machine, into the stranger mind. Drone has always been enamored of the faraway. The sacred, as always, must be imported from there.

“Its devotees are few but fervent. But the faith has always seemed strangely incommunicable: It doesn't seem to get many converts, just initiates and infidels and no commerce between them. Missionary work is a slog. Those who have made stabs at evangelization know the response is usually incredulity rather than hostility. Minimalist classics have been returned to me with a blankness bordering on incomprehension, as if I'd handed out videotapes of television snow and demanded an assessment of character arcs.”

Drone is not to everyone’s taste - that's a given. When I first listened to drone and noise, I found I could only take it in bursts. Sometimes there was some that I just didn't “get” in the least. It's taken a while to get to the stage where I can happily listen to a couple of hours of back-to-back noise and drone. I think that what drone has done for me has helped me find the “music” in the everyday. The sound around us everywhere. The divine noise of life. Listen to the words used in the quote: liturgy, fervent, converts. I went to see the final performance of Birchville Cat Motel in Christchurch and there's such a hush, such a feeling of communion, that you could feel you were in a church. There’s a feeling of reverence at a noise gig. Noise and drone have opened up my aural appreciation, my aural senses. It's helped me to “listen” and it has a meditative quality. Pauline Oliveros uses a term “deep listening” that I rather like.

My playlist is (and will be every week) solely New Zealand. Every other week I'll be playing other NZ music – a mix of genres, but generally away from the mainstream. Radio23 is international, so I want to get some NZ music out there that I'd like people to hear.

I hope it all works according to plan because the station is still in Beta mode and this is a test run for me.

Tracklist for my first session:

‘Metal Feathers Can Fly’, Peter Wright, Invisible Pyramid: Elegy Box , 277 seconds, 2005, Last Visible Dog
‘Lull’, Swung, Voice and Key, 130 seconds, 2006, Pseudo Arcana
‘Junkshop Rainbow Superserpent’, Birchville Cat Motel, Second Curved Surface Destroyer (Disc 2), 1739 seconds, 2008, Celebrate Psi Phenomenon
‘Hong Kong Abracadabra’, Birchville Cat Motel, Second Curved Surface Destroyer (Disc 2), 1189 seconds, 2008, Celebrate Psi Phenomenon
‘Use’, 1/3 octave band, Sub Lumina, 870 seconds, 2006, Humbug
‘Antarctica Download (Edit)’, Seht, The Tone Of The Universe (=The Tone of the Earth), 421 seconds, 2005, Pseudo Arcana
‘Mem’, Swung, Voice and Key, 137 seconds, 2006, Pseudo Arcana
‘And Where The Colored Planes Are Rafts’, Antony Milton, Sirens/And Where The Coloured Planes Are Rafts, 252 seconds, 2005, Last Visible Dog
‘Amber Eyed’, The Nether Dawn, The Tone Of The Universe (=The Tone of the Earth), 212 seconds, 2005, PseudoArcana
‘Catchpool 01’, Seht, Invisible Pyramid: Elegy Box , 815 seconds, 2005, Last Visible Dog
‘Requiem For John Fahey’, Seht, The Voice Of The Taniwha, 657 seconds, 2003, Last Visible Dog
‘Dudi’, Swung, Voice and Key, 265 seconds, 2006, Pseudo Arcana

Radio23.org

I'm doing a weekly radio show for Radio23 - live tomorrow morning from 7-9am NZ time - called At Home With Rose (of course). NZ noise-drone-ambient. Radio23 is still on test drive. Hope it all goes according to plan!

It's going to be a weekly show. Kinda exciting cos I've never done anything like this before.

I'll post the playlist here in the morning.

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Sunday, January 25, 2009

Old School and Proud

Listening to: Nouns, No Age

There's something incredibly wholesome going on in my house. I've taken up the fine art of preserving, and here's the results of my efforts. Well, not the entire results, cos we've eaten some already, and it was delicious, I tell you. I remember helping my Mum to do bottling and I did some years ago, but I've had to resort to the old Edmonds book to job my memory. So far I've made tomato relish, pasta sauce and bottled apricots. I think the apricots are best - they look great and taste better. I rang a few orchards in Central Otago because that's where the best stone fruit comes from. Got a pretty good deal and bought about 18kg of fruit, so I have to get busy and bottle them before they get too ripe. There's something about living in this cottage that makes me want to get back to basics. Yesterday I made a massive pot of vegetable stock that is now in the freezer. Fuck, I feel so bloody virtuous! Next I'll be knocking up a little calico dress soon out of flour sacks! Nyah hahahahaha!

Friday, January 23, 2009

Dr Eugene Chadbourne @ Happy

My friend asked me along to see a touring US performer last night - Dr Eugene Chadbourne – who was playing at Happy. Dan Beban was playing his electric cake-tin guitar first, and that was a very nice and apt leadup to Eugene's performance. Dan's guitar looks very rudimentary, but the sounds that emanate are nothing but. The mesmerising and uplifting big big sound that came out of that baby were fantastic. I'm keen to see him play again. He had started off on the banjo and that was cool too, but that cake-tin blew me away. I could see he had some pedals on the go, so I guess he had some looping and delay going on which helped build up some gorgeous sonic layers. Sweet!

I didn't know much at all about Chadbourne. I had seen some info about him because of the tour, so all I really knew was about his innovation and experimentation with instruments, the electric rake being the most intriguing. I never got to see the electric rake, and although a bit disappointed at the time, in retrospect I don't really care, because the innate beauty and humanity that eminated from Chadbourne's music had little to do with his home-built instruments. Rather, he was the instrument of all this. I'm interested now to listen to some of his recorded music. I wonder if any of his playful grimaces and laughing, amused delivery will be apparent through recorded sound. He was a joy to watch - he had a complete lack of self-conciousness or guile. His songs talked about real-sounding people, and reminded me a lot of Daniel Johnson's songs, both in delivery and content. I hate that word ‘quirky’ but it seems to fit here. His banjo playing was playful and he makes it all look so easy. Obviously it's not! Most of his songs forced me into a constant smile, and, on more than one occasion, I laughed out loud. I couldn't take my eyes off his constant change of facial expression.

To say he doesn't run with the mainstream would be an understatement. Now I've read some more about him, his list of collaborations reads like an A-list of outsider experimental musicians.

The solo stuff was fantastic, and I wish I could go again (well, I could cos he's playing again tonight, again at Happy, but I have other things planned). He then went on to some noodly improv with the usual Wellington Happy crew, which wasn't really my cuppa tea. Dunno why, but improvisation never really does it for me.

If I had to describe Chadbourne with a quick phrase, it would be "Daniel Johnston reincarnated as an experimental bluegrass jazz freak". Perhaps without the afflictions that Daniel lives with.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Me and the man


I've just been scrolling through old pics on my phone. I used to have my laptop at work which was very handy - I could bluetooth them across to my laptop straight from my mobile. But without that I'm a bit stuck. I just tried emailing a pic from my phone to my desktop computer, which doesn't have bluetooth. Annoyingly, the images are now only 16k! But usually they are a decent size. Anyway, I thought this was a nice photo of me and Dave. Grainy, but in a good way.

Yes, yes, this is my first blog for a VERY long time. Recently I have been wasting a great deal of time on Facebook. And now I have discovered Twitter, and that’s even worse. They are both rather stupid. They are far too distracting from the work I should be doing.

I think I would rather upkeep my blog. It's far more enjoyable. And not quite as distracting.

Friday, August 29, 2008

The Legendary Newtown Dots

Listening to: Themselves, The No Sound

Have you seen the dots. I love the dots. Come and put some on the lampposts on my street. Go on.

I took the dog for a big old walk to the zoo and back last weekend and snapped these.





Sunday, July 27, 2008

Another couple of pics

Some more views of the living area. Still some boxes to unpack, but we are fully settled in. Next step: purchase some DIY books!


Home Owner at Last

Dave and I have bought a turn-of-the-century cottage. We moved in just over a month ago and we are very happy indeed. Feeling right at home.





Thursday, July 24, 2008

My cat has been typing secret messages

I left my keyboard unattended, and came back to find this entered into a dialogue box: ''''uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuCVUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU8999mmmmm7cccc----ccccccccoyyy oo fd p[--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------v o9b vvvv0

Is my cat sending me secret messages? Can anyone decode this?

Perhaps it's : "If you've gone to the supermarket, you better come back with some bloody catfood!"

Wild Combination


I've just seen a wonderful wonderful film. And I know I'm going to spend the next while seeking out the music of Arthur Russell. Cos he's amazing. And so is this poster.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Explanation of Absence

Okay, back to mid-2007: here I was happily engaged with my design business, Parlour. Self-employed for over 5 years. Sharing an office with two friends. I get an offer from one of my print suppliers, totally out of the blue, to come and work for him as creative director of a small design company he owned. My immediate reaction was “no way”, but I started thinking about is his offer, and after about a month’s worth of negotiations, and a month or two of getting Parlour sorted, I moved across, winding up Parlour and taking my clients with me. I made a pretty sweet deal and am now on a pretty substantial salary.

But there are some BUTs - I miss working for myself. I've given up a great deal of autonomy. It feels different - I don't feel the ownership I used to feel about my work. But there are some pluses for sure. The people here are great - it's fun to work in a team environment again. It's nice to hand work over to my designers when I get really busy. I'm looking forward to taking holidays (in fact, I'm heading off in a week's time to my first proper holiday in 6 years). It's good to know there are sick days there when I need to take them. I don't have to deal with the stinky IRD any more (big big plus!). The cashflow is easier, of course. Salary paid weekly. Nice.

So, life is quite different these days. I only have one kid left at home - my two girls have moved out and are now in the adult world, working and flatting. My son is at university and has a girlfriend so I don't see much of him. Dave and I are together (for those that don't know) but we live apart now - seems to work for us. All in all, things are pretty smooth. I work some silly hours still, but then, I always have. It's part of me, and I recognise it's of my own making. I probably need to change this. I will. In time. Right now, I need to make this new job work, and to make this design studio a success. It's a bit daunting really. Design and print are competitive industries, and I'm pretty much left to my own devices. Fingers crossed I can make this work.

Oh, and I'm hoping to buy my own house by the end of the year. Sick of renting. Time to grow put down some roots.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Surprise Post

Well hello there. I have not died. No. I've just had my life taken over by my new job which I started back in August '07. About the time I stopped blogging.

Okay, this is just to say that I'm alive.

Next instalment soon. Very soon.

Watch this space.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Feeling special

Yes, I'm feeling special. I just won a design award, which is a very nice thing. Indeed. The award I won was for the Best Educational Book category. Yay me.

Here's the press release:

Graphic Design : 2007 Spectrum Print Book Design Awards winners announced

Eagle's Complete Trees and Shrubs of New Zealand, written and illustrated by Audrey Eagle and published by Te Papa Press, swooped away with half of the awards on offer in the 2007 Spectrum Print Book Design Awards. "The judges unanimously agreed that this magnificent two-volume set easily met, and indeed surpassed, the criteria by which the entries had to be judged," said convenor of judges Denis Welch.

Designers Neil Pardington (Base Two) and Robyn Sivewright (Afineline) won Best Illustrated Book, Best Cover, and Best Book overall for their work on this landmark publication. This is Pardington's third consecutive win.

Audrey Eagle's botanical drawings were first published in 1975 by William Collins (New Zealand) Ltd; with a second volume following in 1983. As well as all of the artwork from the previous two volumes, the new volumes contain over 170 new paintings and drawings by Eagle, and showcase every presently known tree and shrub in New Zealand.

The treatment of Eagle's Complete Trees and Shrubs of New Zealand by Pardington (covers) and Sivewright (interiors) has also helped to earn Audrey Eagle and Te Papa Press a nomination for Best Illustrated Book at the Montana Book Awards.

Brief Lives (Auckland University Press) won designers Sarah Maxey and Katrina Duncan, along with artist Brendan O'Brien, the Best Non-Illustrated category of the awards.

The other winners were Cheryl Rowe, awarded Best Children's Book for Legends of Ngatoro-i-rangi (Reed Publishing), and Rose Miller, awarded Best Educational Book for Te Kete Kupu (Huia Publishers) – the first children’s dictionary completely in te reo Māori.

"The high overall standard of the entries indicates a publishing industry in remarkably good shape," said Welch, who was joined on the panel by bookseller Beth Davies and William Chen, founding Art Director of Metro and Art Director of Cuisine.

The book design awards have been run annually since 1997 by the Book Publishers Association of New Zealand.

30/7/07

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Notes on the Festival

We're fortunate to have some intelligent filmwriting on the Festival - see Lumière Reader. It has excellent reviews throughout the year, but during the months of June and July it devotes itself to the New Zealand Film Festivals screenings. Good on them.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Triple bill

First up today: Tuli , a film by Philippines director Auraeus Solito, who's debut feature The Blossoming of Maximo Oliveros screened at last year's Festival (I think it was last year's but the years get a bit mixed up!). Anyway, this was a strange and sweet film about a girl in a Filipino village, growing up as the daughter of the local village circumciser, who is also a drunk and generally a real asshole. The film includes views of simple village life and the story plays out to a happy ending. I'm looking forward to seeing more from this filmmaker. I really enjoy his storytelling.

Secondly was These Girls, quite a short documentary focusing on the life of a bunch of girls living on the streets of Cairo. These are different to our streetkids though - vastly different. The law does nothing to protect the girls from rape and kidnapping - the local guys make a habit of this and leave the girls scarred on their faces as a sign they have been “marked”. The girls bring up their babies on the streets. It was pretty grim, but getting to hear the girls’ stories made you realise that life on the streets is preferable to being beaten by their fathers back home.




Lastly, experimental film by Leighton Peirce. Explorations of Folded Time is a collection of painterly domestic macro-moments – slices of small moments of beauty, slowed down and repeated and lush with emotion. His children are observed in small detail - hands in water, small gaudy indistinct figures running down the back stairs. Sound is amplified and detailed. I smiled often during this screening, with the sweetness and beauty of the unfolding images. Just gorgeous. Quite a few people walked out. Why do people go to experimental cinema and not know what they are in for?!

Phew - pretty tired now. A few hours of work now then off to bed. Three films tomorrow.

Battles

Just had to share this: Battles with 'Atlas' off their album Mirrored.

Film Festival madness (again)

It's that time of year again. The Film Festival started today. The big gala opening was last night, with Taika Waititi's Eagle vs Shark. Jury's out on this one. Some fun moments, but left me with nothing. I think I was expecting so much more after his quite beautiful short films, Two Cars One Night and Tama Tu. Oh well. Hope he does better next time. The Americans are not saying very nice things about it. Redeeming feature: the soundtrack. I guess mentioning Napoleon Dynamite to Taika might get him a little riled right now.

Tonight I saw A Mighty Heart, Michael Winterbottom's latest (starring Angelina Jolie as Mariane Pearl, wife of murdered journalist, Daniel Pearl), then Head, the Monkees film from 1968. Apparently it was a box office flop at the time. It was really fucking funny. Loved every minute. Here's something I just read: Rumors abound that the title was chosen in case a sequel was made. The advertisements would supposedly have read: "From the people who gave you Head." Now that's funny, huh? I loved the Monkees when I was a kid. Of course, I never got the drug references. I guess they were there in the series - they certainly abound in the film.

A Mighty Heart was pretty affecting – the streets scenes in Karachi, the very believable Jolie as Pearl's wife, the fantastic cast - it all added up to a great film. I missed Road to Guantanamo last year, but have seen plenty of Winterbottom's films before. It was great to follow this with Head. I was feeling a bit emotionally wrung out.

I have three films tomorrow and a meeting at 9 am, so I'd better get to bed.

Oh, and just thought I'd add that Battles are coming. Fucking A, mate! I'm over the moon. 22 September at San Fran.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Watch this space

Listening to: Bramble Radio download. Highly recommended. My friend's online music show - find some new tunes.

Well, life has taken some funny turns of late. I found out a wee while ago that I had been shortlisted for a design award. Freaky deaky. I'm planning to head up to Auckland for the awards dinner and see if I'm a winner. That would be strange. Just being shortlisted is a bit of a buzz.

Another odd turn is that I have been offered a fulltime job. I should still be able to retain my current clients under this new regime, but essentially I won't be working for myself anymore, which means no more irritating tax compliance (goodbye, paperwork!) and a solid stable income. Not that it's been financially tricky too often, but this way it's far more likely that I'll be able to buy a house. That will be pretty cool. And there's some new challenges in the job too - some of them a bit scary, but I think it's time to bring some new things into my life. Can't have things getting too comfortable!

I've been doing my usual Film Fesitval stint (my ninth and, probably, final year). There's some great films this year, including a bunch of 70s films made by US maverick filmmakers. Most of them seem to be starring a young (and rather attractive) Jack Nicholson.

So. Watch this space. I'll fill you all in on this new job when I know more about what the hell I'm gonna be doing.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

The Dark

Okay, so the show went okay. It was kinda fun actually, and I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be. Here's how it looked on the gallery wall on the opening night. Had a few wines, went out for dinner… the usual drill.

Here's my artist statement:
"I’ve been photographing light for a while now. I’ve always loved the dancing reflections of light on walls and ceilings. Capturing it seemed a fun thing to do, especially on my new digital camera - the results were instant. I ended up with a collection of abstract forms. I thought about light and shadow. About how delightful the play of light bouncing off a shiny object onto a ceiling could be. And then about how, as a child, dark shadows in my bedroom at night could be so menacing. I tried putting the two of these things together. The dark. The light. My light/shadow creatures were born. They’re not scary. But they have a slighly dark side."




Sunday, June 24, 2007

I'm in my first show.


Yes, I'm about to be in a show. I'm part of the group exhibition – Vent – at Thermostat Gallery in Palmerston North. I'm nervous. I'm excited.

No preview of my work I'm afraid. I'll be uploading some images after the show. It opens on Saturday 30 June at 5pm.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Last of the sunshine



Autumn is pretty much my favourite time of year. The air has a certain soft mellow feel that I love, and when the evening chill sets in I'm lighting an open fire but it's not so cold that I'm swearing and cursing while outside cutting the kindling to get the fire going.

It was still warm enough last week to go and lay around on the grass at Waitangi Park. This park has become our walking place - where we go when we are feeling a bit cooped up in the office. A quick jaunt around the park, or a quiet meander, depending on the mood. Mostly the latter really. For me anyway. Meandering is a good thing. Anyway, here's my office buddy laying around on the grass. Is that grass really green, or what?

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Further silliness

Need a new middle name? Try this one...

My new name under Kurt Vonnegut's Lonesome No More! scheme is:-
Rosemary Alligator-4 Miller
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Surreal

This is a bit of fun...

We can't stop here. This is Rose country.

Which movie was this quote from?

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Friday, April 27, 2007

Sorted. Well, kinda...

I'm going through this weird transition at the moment. I'm trying to morph from spendthrift to scrooge, and it's a painful process. It's also a very necessary process. My business has done well, but I've dipped into the old business account far too often and haven't left enough to pay the government their share of my earnings. This has left me with a massive debt and the only way I can pay it off is to change the way I've been living and cut back my expenses. It's been nice having money (when my kids were little I was really really poor) and I've been a little irresponsible. It's taken a while to come to the realisation that I have to change my attitude towards money and become responsible. Oh hell, am I finally becoming a proper grown-up?

The first step was to meet with my accountants and establish the debt - how much was owed. Then I worked out a realistic budget for myself. I used a really great website to do this - www.sorted.org.nz. I loaded in the actual amounts I've been spending. It exceeded the amount I'm meant to be paying myself from the business by more than I'm going to divulge here. It's embrarrassing to see how much I was spending. Then I plugged in some realistic targets. The next step is to set up an electronic budget so I can track everything and see how much I can spend.

I thought this process was going to be scary and unpleasant, as well as difficult, but now I have my head around it, it's actually quite fun.

I now have three to five years ahead of me to get my financial situation back to a healthier situtation. Yikes!

Friday, April 20, 2007

Phallic or vulval?

My office mate has started a blog concerning vulval design in the world around us. It's fun. It will make you see the world in a different way. Is it phallic? Is it vulval? Maybe that building down the road is closer to hermaphrodite... Oh my. You can see how much fun life in my office is. Tra la la.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

what i've been up to...

Listening to: Colossal Youth, Young Marble Giants

I urge you all to revisit this album!!

I've got a new way of living going on that means, unfortunately, less blogging. Now that I'm working from an office I'm living a bit more like the rest of the population, but that means leaving my Mac at work and doing things in the evening that do not involve the computer. I realised that I had been filling in the empty evenings since Dave left with work work work. NO more! I'm now being much more efficient with my time. This does, however, mean that blogging is happening less and less often. So be it. My life is a lot healthier these days since my decision to leave the computer behind at the end of the day.

I've been to some fun gigs lately. Hightlights have been twee pop Glaswegians Camera Obscura, pysch rockers Comets on Fire (supported in the most wonderful way by our own Birchville Cat Motel - I couldn't believe how magnificent this was), old school Flying Nun boys The Clean and noise legends, Dead C (see them here on YouTube).

On the movie front, World Cinema Showcase has just started and I have managed three films in the past week. The best so far has been Rampage, a doco about life in the "war zones" of Miami, focusing on the lives of a family stuck in the midst of gang warfare in "Brown Sub". Pretty shocking and depressing but so worth seeing. All I can say is, US gun laws are really really stupid.

On eccentricty

Eccentricity has always abounded where and when strength of character has abounded: and the amount of eccentricity in a society has generally been proportional to the amount of genius, mental vigour and moral courage it contained. That so few dare to be eccentric marks the chief danger of the time.

John Stuart Mill

Friday, March 16, 2007

Auckland trip

Had a nice time in Auckland last week with my good friends Matt and Jo. The reason for the trip was to all go to see the La Clique burlesque show that was part of the Auckland Arts Festival. I loved the show - it was a lot of fun. It was also really cool to hang out with my lovely buddies. But I've decided that I do not particuarly like Auckland. I would never want to live there. It's too hot, there are too many people, and I witnessed some pretty upsetting gang violence on Queen Street that completely freaked me.

Here we are about to head into the venue to see La Clique.

Friday, March 09, 2007

The Office!

Finally! Here are some pics of the new office. I've been here for two weeks today. So far, I'm loving it. My office friends are lovely and I'm managing to stick to my new regime of leaving work at the office and having some time to myself in the evenings. Of course, this means I have to be efficient during the day and get lots of work done, which is why I've been slack on the blogging front.



Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Berlin @ Wellington

Some great music nights coming up at Mighty Mighty as a collaboration with the Goethe Institut. I plan to get to these three...

Friday 2 March - Bonaparte - Bang Bang Berlin Live show - solo new-electro-trash-punk darling Bonaparte via Bern, Barcelona and Berlin and now….The Mighty Mighty, 10pm www.myspace.com/findingbonaparte
DJ Steffen Schoeler from Berlin’s beloved quirksters dwfb. He’ll be coming straight off the plane from Berlin to Cuba St central, 12pm
The infamous Bar 25 Vodka Slide - The hottest craze from the Party Capital straight off the ice. It’s a license to pash as well as being the most fantastic way to drink vodka! www.bar25.de

[Hmm, this Vodka slide sounds like it could be amusing... Apparently it involves vodka, lots of ice, and pashing]

Thursday 8 March - Micro-pop Queen Barbara Morgenstern (Berlin) www.barbaramorgenstern.de and Fred Avril (Paris) www.fredavril.com for a night of lush sounds with “The Society For the Promotion of A Fantastic Way of Life” who’s electronic music is drawn largely from German labels including Morr Music, Monika Enterprise, City Centre Offices, Alien Transistor & Dial Records." 10pm.
PPC from 5pm

Friday 9 March - Blood Sausage, Leather and Beer featuring
Kapitan Krautrock und Freunde with German beer and sausage specials for lovers of Tangerine Dream, Faust, Can, Amon Düül

If I have only one night to choose, it's gonna be Barbara Morgenstern.

Monday, February 19, 2007

File this!

Listening to: On the Beach, Neil Young

I've taken an office in town. I've had to put all work on hold for a day to get myself into my office and I just started the gruelling task tonight of archiving my files. This is five years of files to sort through: bin what will never be needed ever again, archive into boxes what will be possibly be needed at some later date, and put aside the files I want to take to the new office. It's not a pretty sight in my dining room right now - so far there are three two-foot high piles of A4 paper that is the "bin" category, seven archived boxes of files and I'm up to T. So almost there. I'll get this cut tonight and then tomorrow is tidying day and then it's onto packing down computer gear and figuring what else I'll need to shift down to the office. Then at some stage I'll need to clean up the resulting carnage in my sunroom. I'll be glad when this is all over and I'm ensconced in my nice new office with my two friends (who are well organised and have already been there for a week). And then I'll be posting some photos, oh yes I will.

Oh and the highlight of the evening was finding something unpleasant that a cat had done behind the filing shelves. Nice.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

saturday night at the movies…

Listening to: Tony Conrad. Tim Barnes. Mattin. on PSI Phenomenon (thank you Campbell Kneale)

MaoriTV has been programming pretty good movies. I just watched Daytrippers, a film by Greg Mottola. (Although in The Listener this was attributed to Noah Baumbach!) A nice indie film about an unravelling marriage and a (slightly) disfunctional family, mostly set in a family stationwagon. A wife finds a love letter and goes to her family for advice. Along with her mum, dad, sister and sister's boyfriend, she goes in search of the answers and eventaully finds the truth. The whole event happens within the space of a day, so it has the feel of a short story. It was a really neat and satisfying little lo-fi film. I really do wonder how The Listener got its facts so wrong. Mind you, I don't mind, because it was the Baumbach connection that persuaded me to watch it.

I should tune in to MaoriTV more often for their film choices, obviously. Some time ago I saw another little gem, Heater, a Canadian indie well worth watching.

I got along to City Gallery today to check out the Prospect Show with Dave. There were some good works there (of course, some real shite as well, but that will happen...) Hmm, well, interestingly the navigation menu for the show doesn't work on the Telecom site I have marked for you just yet, but hopefully it will soon. After all, the show has only just started, and sure, Telecom is meant to be the national telecommunications provider... Go figure. It was a lovely day in Wellington today, and a chance to sit in the sun and drink beer. Oh, late summer!

Saturday, February 10, 2007

5 things you didn't know about me

I've been tagged by Ms Webweaver!

Here are five things you didn't know about me (and probably don't want to).

1. When I was about five my brother threw a piece of coal at my sister. She ducked. I copped it in the eye. Some little chunk of the coat actually ended up under my skin beside my eye and I could feel the little gritty thing in there for ages while it worked its way down the side of my nose till it just disintegrated and disappeared. It was kinda freaky.

2. I went through a stage at around the age of ten of pulling out my eyelashes. I don't think I was a maladjusted child, but it was a strange habit. I once had long curly lashes. They never grew back the same. I remember having bald patches in my lashes where I had pulled all of them out. I assure you, I grew out of this one.

3. I can't stand rodents. Rabbits, guinea pigs, rats, mice. They all creep me out, especially en masse. There's a guinea pig enclosure at the zoo and it makes me feel sick looking at them. I used to have pet mice as a kid and I put it down to the bad experiences I had with the little blighters.

4. My favourite pet was a goat that I got as a Christmas present when I was about 9 or 10. I loved that goat so much that one night I snuck out and curled up next to him and slept there. His name was Bilbo Baggins and when we had to leave him behind when we shifted up north when I was 14 I was pretty devastated. I would love to have another pet goat again one day.

5. I performed in an operetta when I was at primary school. I can't remember what it was called but I was one of the leads and I had to speak in a German accent. My parents thought I was great. Or so they said.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Mystification

Listening to: You Forgot it in People, Broken Social Scene

I was checking my blog stats today (not something I do very often) and found that someone in Invercargill looked at 43 pages. I don't think I know anyone in Invercargill. Maybe life is really boring down there. Maybe they were having a dull day at work. Anyway, Invercargill person, if you are popping back to see what exciting things I have been up to... well, hello there!

It's almost three in the morning and I have come to a grinding halt. I have a multitude of jobs to complete at the moment and I'm looking forward to a day of quietness tomorrow when I can get a big chunk done with no interruptions. What with it being Waitangi Day (link for the benefit of those non-NZ readers) and all, it's gonna mean no phone calls or email. Sweet.

Today I finally had my accounts guy over to get my 2006 tax return in (just a wee bit late!) I found that I had another boomer year for Parlour, but where the hell does all my money go! I mean, I don't do any overseas travel, I don't eat out all the time, I don't buy lots of fricking fancy expensive clothes. It's a bit depressing really. I'm just not a saver. This has to change! I hope to make this the year I get my financial shit together. My accounts guy has advised me to keep a log of all my spending. Now that could be scary.

Well, I reckon it's bedtime if I'm gonna have a productive day tomorrow (today?).

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Yeah, I'm a Believer…

Listening to: Ghosts of the Great Highway, Sun Kil Moon

Just got a nice surprise in the post today: my McSweeney's order. No actual McSweeney's Quarterly Concern yet, but since I subscribed to their package deal, I have the DVD magazine Wholpin and The Believer which this time round is a visual arts edition. Yeeha! Now I just have to find time to read the stuff…

Saturday, January 27, 2007

The almighty flea

We saw this outside a pet shop in Crofton Downs this afternoon. I just had to share. In case you can't tell, it's a very large papier maché flea. Awesome. I want one for my lounge.

These are a few of my favourite things...

Listening to: Howard Hello, Don't Drink His Blood
Tagged by Paintergirl!

Okay, I find the whole "favourite" thing really really hard, because I'm not very loyal to my favourites. I can change my mind about these things way too quickly and today's favourite becomes tomorrow's "oh, yeah, I used to like that quite a lot". But here goes for today.

Favourite movie - Donnie Darko
Okay - very mainstream and all, but I just loved this film and have watched it about three or four times which is very rare for me. It's a great whole package and the soundtrack took me way way back.

Favourite guilty pleasure movie - Nell
Syrupy sentamentalism, yes, but I have memories of watching this movie with my kids. They loved it and I loved watching it with them. It used to make me cry.

Favourite book - A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers
Okay, this will change I'm sure. I can't think of any "classic" books that I know and love - there are just so many - so this is my favourite of the moment. I will try and devour anything by Dave Eggers and have just subscribed to McSweeneys.

Favorite guilty pleasure book - Snowflake by Paul Gallico
A book from my childhood that I pick up again every now and then. See the sentimental seam running here? Scary. I also love the cover. It's a slim little hardback novel.

Favourite song - "A Pillow of Winds" by Pink Floyd
Just a really beautiful love song. Makes me close my eyes and smile. Meddle is one of those albums that my big brothers listened to when I was about 11 or 12 and I loved it and listened to it so many times and still can. It reminds me of laying around on a summer's day in our lounge on the cusions in the bay window in the hot sun with the breeze blowing in... But a very close second is The Chills' "Pink Frost".

Favorite guilty pleasure song - Afternoon Delight by The Starland Vocal Band
I can still listen to this song and sing away - know all the words. But only in private. This one's just plain embarassing. I can't believe I'm 'fessing up.

Hey, this was fun! Cheers Paintergirl!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Commes des Garçons

Listening to: Cat Stevens, Teaser and the Firecat

Paintergirl was doing an interesting exercise in nostalgia, taking a trip down the olfactory memory lane by recounting the perfumes she has worn over the years. I could immediately remember the scents I've worn over the years. My latest perfume was not even chosen by the scent but by the concept - I read about it in a magazine and thought "yep, that's for me". Good grief, don't I sound like the most despicable consumer. Anyway, here's the description of the scent. I've been wearing it ever since and have to send away for the stuff since I can't buy it anywhere in NZ.

Odeur 71 by Comme des Garçons
Stray from the traditional and opt for the extraordinary. This bold "anti-perfume" combines 71 modern and classic "odeurs" to yield a unique and provocative fragrance for men and women. This ultraurban scent spins together the cloned inorganic smells of modern daily life and mixes them with natural ingredients for a futuristic fragrance.
Moss, Bamboo, Bay Leaf, Willow, Elm and Birch, with Photocopy Toner, Dust on a Lightbulb, Electric Toaster and Ink.
A cool, contemporary scent for the modern man and woman.

Anti-perfume? Where the hell do they come up with this stuff?

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Gonna be an office girl

Listening to: sunnO))) & Boris, Altar

A friend of mine asked me last week if I'd be interested in sharing some office space. I went and checked it out and it's absolutely perfect. It's pretty lonely with just me and the kids, and even though it means I'll have to fork out some more money, I think it's worth it so I've signed up. Very exciting. It's in exactly the right part of town for me and is very handy to the Film Festival where I'll be working again this year. Yes, I know I said last year that I was giving it up, but I will need the money and really, I do enjoy it, even though the hours are stupidly excessive. I'm moving at the end of the month. I'll post some piccies when I get myself installed. Me and two friends who are web designers will be sub-leasing from a small film production company, so it'll be a whole floor of creatives. And there's even a shower there! Really looking forward to it.

I've been motivated enough lately to manage twice-weekly gym sessions. I'm not the gym type at all, but I know it's the only way I'll get any excercise and I really want to look after myself this year - lose some weight, get fit, eat healthily. Doing well so far...

I've been to see a few films lately. I saw The Valet last night. Fun French comedy. Pretty light, but entertaining. My fave film so far this year (although I haven't seen many) would have to be Sofia Coppola's latest, Marie Antoinette. A flirty frothy piece of girly bliss. Totally lightweight, but so gorgeous. I loved it. And then there's the soundtrack - I got home and downloaded immediately, and it's been on heavy rotation in my car. After listening to 'Hong Kong Garden' by Siouxsie Sioux, I will be no doubt revisiting some of her albums for more than nostalgia's sake. I forgot what an entrancing voice she has.

During some of my Soulseek downloads this week, I found a stash of images. Amongst them was a folder full of images of old Russian posters. The designs are so cool, I just had to share one.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Health Regime a-go-go

I've been really into looking after myself lately. Weekly massages (including some nice healing reiki); eating properly (no sugar - well almost!); taking B vitamin complex, antioxidants, and four times a day a quite disgusting herbal concoction that tastes worse than it smells (and it smells pretty foul). This herbal mix is what is really keeping me going. Among other things it contains a good belt of valerian (nature's very own valium!). It's non-addictive and helps you sleep. During the day, it just helps me deal with the jittery body stuff that comes with grief and loss - a form of anxiety I guess. So really, I think I'm doing bloody well, all things considered.

Today I'm off to see a well regarded homeopath to get a constitutional remedy. More on this later. It'll be interesting to see how this goes. I envisage I will have a large list of questions to answer about my bodily functions and general health.

Work is going well, although there is an awful lot of it. I'm enjoying my work though. Very busy. It's good!

Friday, January 12, 2007

M. Ward is a Guitar God

Wahaaay. Just got back from seeing M. Ward. What a fucking treat. The place was packed. The man was amazing. And I managed to spend the entire gig just two from the front (even though my feet were killing me). It was a pleasure just to watch this guy play, let alone listen to his poignant guitar and beautiful voice. His own songs were brilliant, but it was pretty damned cool to hear his version of Daniel Johnston's "Story of an Artist" (off the Discovered Covered tribute album) and David Bowie's "Let's Dance" (who knew it was such a touching love song till they heard M. Ward sing it?). The best bit was his cool trick with his loop pedal. He was playing solo and you'd suddenly realise that he was looping what he had just played and adding new guitar over the top. At one stage he had two loops of his acoustic guitar going and then played some electric riffs over the top of that. All done seamlessly. Wow. He was so impressive.

Okay, guess it's about bedtime, being 1.30 am with work waiting in the morning. Still, I have a nice massage booked for the afternoon. That's something to look forward to.

Now I have to decide if I'm gonna go see The Veils on Saturday night. And coming soon are Calexico and Joanna Newsom (playing with Smog). Too much!

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

And life goes on...

It seems that I'm starting to pick up the pieces now, thankfully. I've been getting out and about. Went to see Cansei de ser Sexy the other night, which was a lot of fun. I actually went with my 19-year-old son! How sweet is that. So So Modern were the perfect support band. They are one of the best things on the Wellington band scene as far as I'm concerned. I bumped into a guy I haven't seen for 12 years! That was way cool. He was a close friend and we had completely lost touch. Bit of a surprise. He hasn't changed a bit.

I went to see Babel last week. Definitely worth seeing. I've really been seeing so many movies lately. It's a good way to keep my mind off other things, but of course, it's always great to get along to the movies. I'm heading along to Marie Antoinette tomorrow night.

I'm somehow managing to get through my work. I really am still quite behind, but I think I can wing it somehow.

I'm still feeling like I have a bit hole in my life, but I'm feeling stronger every day. Life goes on. It has to.

Friday, January 05, 2007

new blog. should i bother?

I can't quite bring myself to make the effort to start a new blog. Even just thinking of a new name seems like a lot of work. I'm not quite managing to keep up with the work I have to get done at the moment. It tends to be interspersed with little crying breaks. It's very annoying. I want to get back to being "me" again - getting on with things - but it's hard going. I guess I have to be patient with this grieving process. It's not easy getting over the shock of a sudden unexpected split. So many questions. So much pain. My kids are amazing to have around. We've been getting along to see movies, or going out for something to eat (having been feeling like cooking much either. Just been to see The Queen, which I enjoyed (surprisingly!) and The Departed (Scorcese's latest), which was also very good.

So, a new blog is not imminent. This one will just have to continue I guess until I have a bit more energy.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

all over rover

This is not the kind of post I want to be writing. i would like to be saying that it's been a fabulous Christmas and all is happy in my world, but instead I'm writing to say that Dave and I have just split for good. After over two years of trying to make our relationship work, and recent counselling sessions, we are now saying farewell. Dave moved his stuff out today. I must say, I'm pretty devastated. We have just missed the ten-year anniversary mark, which would have been in February.

Because our blogs have been so much something that we've done together, I've decided to can this one and start a fresh one to log the journey of my new life. I'll do one more post when I have that set up and post my new blog address. I'm not sure how this new journey will be. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I'm a battler though, a survivor. I know I'll be okay in the end, but at the moment the pain is very overwhelming and the future doesn't look too bright. Dave and I plan to stay friends, but for me I know it will be hard. But I'm keen to give it a go.

So, farewell to this blog. I hope some of you will follow me on my new journey and keep in touch.

Au revoir.
Rose